Tragedy... Life is so fragile..... deeply saddened

The news struck me.....
The confirmation shocked me.....
The feeling saddened me.......
Deeply............

Knowing Reuben was one of the 5 dragonboat rowers who passed on in the Cambodia tragedy really was an undescribable feeling. A person whom i've idolised since 2004 "A musical journey through time" Always the best pianist in my heart..then and forever.

Reuben was such a fine young man. Tall, dark , charming, fit, cheerful , talented and easy going. Although i've only known him for a short period, he's such a nice guy, always smiling. Looking at the posters designed by Reu outside my office saddened me..... tears just flow down my cheeks. Atmosphere in the office was "stale" and quiet.

Back again...

Preparing to go Jas po's hse for make up for tonight's event, our poly classmate, Amelia's wedding at Marina Mandarin. And of cos our make up artist is none other than BENJI!! U the MAN! =) Looking forward to this wedding dinner with the good food and meeting back our group of friends =) Just one darn thing that dampen my mood.... a freaking big pimple on the left of my nose!! *eeks* Lol...

Wet back to NYP with Jia to get my heels for tonight's dinner! Darn, i seem to leave every single thing in office. Like my 2nd home, in fact 1st home?? Lol.. Took Benji's make up kit home. Freaking heavy la.. Mum's so funny when she saw me holding the kit and said " Why u became magician le huh?" It's for 2 days of being back together again after a month, probably the only last shot to work things out. If things works, then good for both. If not, then it's gone for good. No one can predict the future so we'll see.

Prac was good in S&G and we managed to see some "light" in our tough routine. Trying hard to link and dance out a story line. I jus hope that we can feel each other more in our dancing esp Rumba. I can't seem to engage with Mel on that, just a weird feeling. Sigh.. Felt kinda bad not gg over to junior Victoria's bday as promised. Guess i really label dance on top of everything else. Dunno why i feel so shaky for this comp and not confident at all. Sigh.. just hope all our efforts will bring us some results. Jiayou!

Peter broke the news to BE today abt his term with NYP ends. Making Sat (24/11/07) his last official lesson with us. I have many mixed feelings to that. I admit i'm kinda affected by it too. Guess only Josh will understand how I feel cos we've been thru together the transition period from not having Peter to having Peter and lastly....."losing" him again. Why must things in life always be having one matter to off-set another?

Anyway, it's been a really rocky and "turbulence-experiencing" year end for 2007. What's ahead is still very vague and can only take things slow to see what happens after every step.

Feeling rotten

Went for a short 4 rounds jog at the tracks with Benji and did some stretching after that. Wow..revived again! Shiok! BUt then, ate 1 plain and 1 kosong prata for lunch!! hehe lol... ALL NO MORE LIAO, OFFSET what i've burnt off =p

MEt up with Victor (sis fren) at city hall and went s&g to settle private payment. Bought a novel for just $2! Cheap =) Then after settling our digi cam issue, we went to Marina's foodcourt for our dinner. NIce jap food they have there and most imptly....it's at a reasonable price!! =)

My day was okay till a phone call spoiled my entire day. It's Peter's last day in SA today. I was shocked when Allison told me out of the blue.

Yes, although i know this will happen sooner or later, but i didn't expect it to be so soon. Sigh.. i duno, seems like its so hard to accept. And i think it all escalated to this verdict was ALL BECAUSE OF ME! I brought this upon things to happen this way. It's just so sucky. Am feeling so so rotten now.... Is not a good feeling at all.

Totally affected.........

Rene, this time u are a big screw up!!

I seriously dunno what to say anymore

Orion Auditions

I've been feeling so so tired lately, having probs waking up...
Why is it so?
I've been trying to turn in early, in fact by 1am but still I feel like I can't wake up
Why is it so?
..... like my body is telling my brain not to wake up

Ended up kept reaching office late these few days esp ytd when i reached only at 10am. Well, cos Mon's BE prac ended abt 11pm and i reached home only at 1230am! LAST TRAIN.
BUT..... prac was so so so shiok! Perspired till my whole top was drenched!!!! (wore my new heels again =p) Too bad can't really prac much with Mel already cos of his school work and projs and all. Sigh...oh wells, can't be helped! But cannot SLACK, Rene!! BE DISCIPLINED AND PRACTICE YOURSELF!

Orion auditions went quite well today i must say, despite the last minute decision and not really well prepared planning and limted manpower. Got quite a few quality singers and I'm so proud of quite a couple of my Stagearters juniors! WELL DONE to Amin, Shakirah, Eunice and Espall!! =) All the best for your results! Anticipating for the next round of auditions this Friday!

Ate prata with Lin and Pauline after 6pm (so lucky to be the last one to order...hehe craving for PRATA) Went to Bishan with Joan and bought SUBWAY back for Mummy to eat!! Hmmm feels so so weird to be taking the train back at such a hour. So early to be going home but hey be a good girl for once, Rene! Mum needs company too! Yupp, i must not be selfish and neglect my loved ones. Mummy, I LOve U!

Aim to slp early tonight By 12am!!! Let's see.... =)
Nite and Bites peeps......

Entry for 20/11/07 (Tue) : Crapped with Belman
It's Bennerick and Caren's private lesson with Belman for their Chahca routine today. Hmm.. went over to S&G with them to see if I'll be able to see their routine and help them in any way or not. Self prac also!! I must say overall their session was not bad, could see improvement though pace was a little slow. Caren, don't be stressed!! It's all written all over your face! =p BUt Belman was happy so yeah...jiayou!

Did some self prac, basics and weight placement. Hmm.. mood wasn't really there so i decided to do some stretching. Sickening Belman caught me off-guard and came over and literally sit on me when i was doing my leg stretches!! OUChhh!! And he happily sat on me and continued counting "2,3,4....1" for Ben and Caren's routine. Grrrrr........ And he continued doing that for so many times....Darn! Split in 2 weeks time for Mel and I was the goal he set for us. -_-"

Sat and chatted at a coffeshop downstairs with him and Caren too. Showed us video of him filming himself practicing at 3AM in studio!! MAdness!! Then he pulled out all his certificates, report card, pics and newspaper cuttings of him last time for us to see. Gawd! He really can't study, failed almost all his subjects!! Hehe...got to know so much more abt him and what an interesting life story/past he has. Darn Funny too! But some really unbelievable and creepy that Caren and I still dunno whether to believe him or not. hahas..

One stupid thing was while we were chatting halfway, he suddenly said "All day i dream about Sex"
I was like....."huh?" and stared blankly at him
And he goes "Yeah look, you're wearing it" (points to the jacket i was wearing)
On my left breast pocket was Adidas which means:

All
Day
I
Dream
About
Sex

OMG! Lame right!! But he keeps saying that's how Adidas got its name. Was by a lady who thought of this name. Now it's your call guys.
Do U believe IT?

Took a train back with him and we invited many stares in the train too. Hmm generally was a relaxing time to get to know more abt my instructor off dance. =) Lol... He's still a crapper lar... And he's only one yr older than me but still looked like someone in his thirties! Well, Caucasians!

Enjoyable and fulfilling day spent

3 quality things i did today!!

1) Yupp i slept till 10am!
2) Yupp i finally trimed my hair!
3) Yupp i bought my 3rd pair of Latin heels from Cindini! (Finally a 2.75 inch,dark reddish brown and most IMPTLY........ it's tight and FITS) And it costs $105, including heel protector!
*Sigh.. can eat grass for 2 months liao

Jia accompanied me to Cindini, then ate Mac cos we're rushing for time! Sigh...just recovered from my sickness but we're left with not much choice of eatery near the station.Weird thing now is that, things are taking a step to another level & i'm actually feeling differently. Not sure what that means but yeah, we'll see how things goes.

Private lesson with Belman again!! RUMBA!! My favourite =)
Got a total of abt 25 bars only and both Mel and I felt that it was pretty tough in the beginning cos of the tricks and stuff.

Belman said " This has never ever been done before, TRY IT!"

He's always thinking of crazy stuff for us and make us do things out of his own creation... oh well, but it's all looking great so we'll try our very best to do it! It's a pity that we ended 1 hr sharp cos he still had class after us. So cool when he tried to describe the "story of our routine" to match our movements (eg. the coming towards and leaving, away of the male and female role) But its so freaking funny when we tried to "relate and link the story" ourselves. We were pratcically commanding each other with words like "Come in! Away! I want..... I don't want!" before each move. So idiotic la..lol...but at the same time fun. Well, this is what i like abt rumba cos u gotta feel it to dance it, then create it and move together with it. It's tough.... well isn't what's that all abt? IT'S DANCESPORT! =)

Mel left early with his fren but left behind MEE FEN for me!! Lol... but guess it was left out for too long and turned kinda sour. But HECK lar, was freaking hungry after Belman's technique class! Plus my legs and toes were freaking painful (my new heels =p) Everyone in studio were like commenting "Oh my god, smells bad!" "What's that smell?" and Belman went "Gosh, the studio smells of stinky socks" -_ -" WTH! Still i finished the entire pkt. hahas...

Fun part was when I was abt to leave studio. Belman shouted my name "RENE, come over here" And in i went into his class of Ang Mohs that are all freaking TALL. He needed an assistant to help him in his Salsa and Jive class so i partnered him. SO funny lar, i'm basically dancing with his chest all the way!! Eye level mah..haha. HAd FUn and he led me for Salsa and spun me for his so so so so so many rounds till i really couldnt stand on my feet! Sickening!

What an enjoyable day spent! =)

Sinfonia 2007 was great!!

I'm Sick *sniffs*sniffs*

Darn, what a day! Really fell ill. Down with a dry throat, caught a cold and slight fever... Sighs..

Feels horrible... totally got no mood to do anything at all. Recently, have been feeling so so so cold anywhere, everywhere. I'm not a person that is afraid of the cold. But now i can practically sleep thru the night without turning on the fan at all. This is SO NOT RENE. Lol....

Very agonising day and not only me. Lina and Ivan were also starting to get sick and showing symptoms of sneezing and coughing. Totally got no mood to do work, speak or anything. Sigh..
Actually was supposed to have private with Belman today but he called to postponed to Sunday. Hmm... guess it was a better choice too cos i doubt it'll be a very wise idea to stress my mind and body at this state.

Sinfonia rehearsal in Audi and being Nai ma for my dear singers Farhanah and Shahirah. Sigh.. need to have a good rest today. Yupp! Pop a medicine, slp early and yeah...BRAND NEW START TOMORROW!!

Last week of lunchtime concert!!! Yipee!! =)

~ Me and my dear student emcees (Felicia and Teng Chung) ~



~ Us again (self-taken by me of cos...lol) ~



~ Hmmm.. this is taken by Felicia (good try) =p ~

~Phew! ~ Finally, Lunchtime concert is over! Everything went well, crowd was there cos mainly it was Foreign Bodies performance slot. Vesper Cheerleading also drew in the 1st batch of crowd by their nice outfit and punctuality. Good! Thanks Amin for buying me 3 BANANAS!! Lol... and also Emcee Teng Chung for your Starfruit juice =) Well, got a freaking bad throat after ytd's SOLID Session's refreshments of chicken wings. I just pray not to fall ill pls, i can't afford to!! Must stay strong, Rene...sighs..

Met up Shahirah and Farhanah to try out some costumes for Sinfonia 2007 this Fri. After much discussion, the girls needed to buy their stuffs ASAP! Brought them out to shop!!!!!!!!!!!! Managed to purchase whatever needed and took a cab back to NYP. Tiring trip plus me not feeling well..sigh. Reached NYP only at 5plus and ate my LUNCH!! Well, reckon that I need rest.. I will go home early to rest today. Yupps! Needa recharge at least a little before our private session with Belman only at 930pm! Still got Sinfonia's reh... Oh wells, tired to update anymore!

Nites all..

S&G craze....lol

Wow!! 4 days in a row dancing my ass off in S&G. Feeling was sooooo good!! Here goes:

Thur (8/11) : Chacha private lesson with Belman@ 730pm! (after waiting for 2 hrs plus and kena drilled some basics by PETER while waiting... painful la but beneficial! hehe thanks Peter!! =) ) Coolness, managed to complete the whole routine of 42bars!!! *smiles* Both Mel and I were quite happy abt the routine. Just that Mel didn't really like some of his parts cos he feels he looks disgusting. Lol...but seriously this chacha routine presents the ladies more. I'm like dancing all over,moving like a crazy hamster over a "vertical looking wheel" hehe.. but hey it's challenging!! WE LIKE! My neck and shoulder area ached like "siao" cos of a silly but nice stunt that Ding Dang Ren wanted us to do initially but failed. I'm supposed to lie flat sideways (on my right) on both of Mel's legs (with him standing up) Cling onto him (right leg hook on and both arms back-hook to his right leg) body presenting to the audience. hmmmm...sounds weird huh? Can visualise? Can imagine? For those who can, Good. For those who don't, sorry can't help u. That's the best i can describe.

The crazy part was, Mel's supposed to pivot my entire body on his left leg and spin one full round with me (full body weight) on his 2 legs! Madness. Sounds impossible? Nothing is impossible. Cos we could almost do it with Belman's help... erm once. =) But anw, it was scraped out eventually. ~Phew~ Generally, we enjoyed the session and crapped with Belman till abt 11pm then left studio! Pengz! Showed us his Facebook a/c.... haha funny la he. And some really really cool pics of him man! Can see that he really hate SMSes,esp when he gets loads of them after all his classes and has to reply all. He was pissed while sitting at the counter clearing his sms and just said "I HAte humans..... I Hate Humans!" haha....funny can. Mel and I just grinned silently. And when he's done! He just blurted out "I'm HORNY, I need sex!! " *Faintz* So random la can!! GUess he's really stressed, after witnessing his non-stop classes for the entire day.

Oh oh and one more thing..... even after 9 months he's been in Spore, He's NEVER EVER EVER tasted a grain of rice or a strand of noodle before!!!! In his entire life!! OMG!!!

Shagged.... tireds

Fri (9/11) : Prac with Mel during his break in E313 for a short 45mins! I'm glad we did that cos we'd have forgotten and wasted time in S&G later when we prac there. Oh wells, prac went well and we were told to show all our 3 dances in front of Belman ..... also Lin and Dex too. Basically we took turns. Jovin actually commented on our Rumba is better. Hmm.... weird. Wow! Was tiring man!! Gracious Me!! Must train up stamina man! Still struggling with our chacha routine , esp the sickening "on-spot ballerina turn" for 2 bars. Sigh! No worries Jia You! Also left studio at abt 11pm. TIREDS BUT SHIOK!!

Sickening Belman asked me "Why do u wear this?" (pointing to my black leg warmers) And I looked at quiet Mel and ans "Erm...to keep my legs warm? To make 'em look longer?" He looked at me and said "It's good to wear 'em cos they make your legs noticeable." As simple as that, darn. Silly me! Then he laughed and asked me to pull my leg-warmers all the way down to my cover my heels. Naturally, they became shorter beneath my kness and he said "Why are they so short? It should be higher, higher" (to the thighs)

I asked "Why?"

Belman replied " Cos that's the way it should be, that's how leg-warmers are supposed to be worn."

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Sat (10/11) : Was slightly late for 15mins for BE prac. Lucky got Auditions 1st.... Hmmm went quite well. Welcome the 2 gentlemen and 2 ladies to La Ballroom En Masse. Suddenly back to Standard feels a little weird, after doing so much Latin. Even wearing my ballroom shoes feels so weird. Lol..

Back to Michell&Why Pong studio again to dance is so so nice (of cos its all cos of Why Pong Lao Shi!) Big group we had and my partner was Lil Fir =) However still learnt basic Foxtrot with Mel. Lol... After Waltz class at 4pm, we wet to our fav toilet in Bugis, National Library to wash up!!! Lol.. wash face only la! So lame! Locked our bags in locker for less than 5 mins and left cos Mel cldn't find any info on Guardian Pharmacy. Went S&G prac again! Studio was pretty packed today! As usual, we wasted no time, "chope" a space of our own and prac, dance, whack the rest! Lol... "New members" came today! Bennerick (with his new Latin pants and shoes), Paulino (she look so HOT in her yellow spag with that nice tan and Grrr....her sexy leopard print skirt), Tim and Victoria!!(the forever cute couple) heez. Belman then did the usual and splited us into 2 heats, each did 2 rounds of chacha and rumba. When Jive arrived, we were both shagged and can't even kick properly. Basically, 30% strength left to dance. Overall, happy for today and hopefully more NYP couples can start gg S&G to prac! Left again only at 11plus! Ate supper (prata) with Tim and mummy! haha... NYP's prata still better. YAwns.. gotta slp early!

Sun (11/11) : Slept late again till 10plus. I love Sunday mornings! =) Ate breakfast with Mummy then met up Jas Po at 415pm in Bugis! Got my leg-warmers ($15.90 so ex!! From Citrux Sox) but din managed to find a skirt. I'M SO BROKE !!Wana plan to go Cindini sometime next week... Hmm plan to take Thurs off! lol.. Went S&G abt 745pm and made full payment finally!! Gawd!! So so so so damn bloody broke now!! Did some self-prac and basics and left shortly. Always feels better to have your partner for prac. But still must be individually strong! So gals out there, pls pls train yourselves up INDIVIDUALLY! It only benefits U!!! TRUST ME! Sigh.... When can we get our Rumba routine?? Wana fix up our last private with Belman so we'll have time to prac and prac and prac and prac the routine till we're so familiar with it so we'll have no worries ler..money$ money$ money$ again! Really don't know how long can I continue Dancesports. Doesn't look very promising to me. Well, a step at a time ba. Met up with Jia for dinner at Long John Silvers and Home.Sweet. Home!! =)

Wow! freaking long entry here...hahas... gg to listen to all the Latin songs Madeline saved for me ler. High high high!! Nites all!

Happy Deepavali ~ Hooray! Its a Public Holiday! =)

Had breakfast with dear Mummy today and had a little chat with her. Sigh.. actually i felt kinda bad that it's a PH but i chose to schedule dance instead of keeping her company. Rene, u'll have to learn to prioritise. Family still comes 1st! Esp this crucial period!

Left home at 1130am to meet Mel for prac @DanceArts with Peter. Saw Adeline from UG and her team of dancers. DAmn POWER!!! OMG!! They danced like a whole bunch of energy bunnies!! Showed Peter our Jive routine and reveived quite positive feedbacks and pointers! Jia you!! Gotta work hard!

Mr Josh came and he never fails to amuse people with his "cock-ness" Lol... Peter treated Mel and I to KFC and we had a good time laughing at him and Josh esp when Peter commented that Josh is a "visual disturbance" to humans!!! Hahahhaa.... i know its so so mean to say that lar... But what do do? It's just Peter, and Yes. It's just Josh too. =p SO DAMN FUNNY LAR CAN!

Plus 2 of them were like always saying things out of the blue. SO RANDOM!! haha...oh wells, i guess they make a perfect "entertainment couple" Mel and I were like laughing away while eating lor... hehe. Went to walk abt to pass time after that and off we went to S&G .....


*to be continued.......

Lunchtime Concert for BE!!! =)

Yays! The 4th week of my lunchtime concert and today's LA BALLROOM EN MASSE performance slot! =) I guess our no. of performers caught the eye of the crowd, nice and flattering costumes attracted the crowd and the dancing stayed the crowd. Chacha, Rumba and Jive were the dances we did. I only did Jive with junior Timothy Seet!! hehe...was happy for this short performance partnership we established. Hope u've enjoyed and benefited from it. *smiles*

Rene made a big silly mistake at the last part of Jive. Supposed to left turn to a "shimmy step" but i did a body roll instead!!But no worries, immediately realised, recovered, SMILE and continued to kick!! LOl...Funny part was, I was in front..... therefore those behind me were stunned. Some followed me but nothing beats Mr Azri, who stood there and stared at me!! Lol...guess he was really shocked. So funny can! Overall, Performance was good, Peter was happy and we were too... Wilfred took some really nice shots thruout the whole show =) Celebrated Paulino's belated bday in studio.

Meeting with DSA and the shortlisted emcees for Sinfonia 2007. After that, had a freaking throbbing headache!! Damn! Tks dear Benji for getting me chicken rice and sorry for waiting so long for me to pack my stuffs. Went over to S&G and waited 40 mins for Bellman, just to get him to schedule our private lesson. Slept there and rested! A 40 mins wait exchanged for a one sec ans by Bellman "Okay, u're lucky. Tml 6pm. I'll see u" That's all...well hopefully we'll be able to finish up 2 routines tml.

Went to KOPITIAM with Dex, Lin and Benji for awhile and left for home. Tireds! Tml will be dance day again!! Yays! *anticipation* Hope Mel will feel better ... Nights everyone!! Will post pics soon.....

Cheers (",)

It's Paulino's Bday!! ~happy bday to you~

Came to work only @1145am. Was soooooo tired! Anyway, gotten permission from Edelweis...lol. Good bosses i have! Work as usual... gonna settle post events stuffs like NEA. Help out for Sinfonia guest list etc.. Nothing much..

Supposed to meet Peter for lunch at 2pm but he came only at 3pm!! Gosh! I was starving!! Ate prata...hehe.. then went to Atrium Bazaar and he treated me the "I scream yogurt" =) So nice!
Prac as usual for BE and left at 845pm. Off i go to Bukit Timah to meet y dear ATC gals... hehee

My journey to Bt Timah was a real "interesting" one.Sigh... Took MRT to AMK opp bus stop to board bus 74. Was pretty fast in fact... supposed to alight at King Albert's Park but i alighted beforehand at CROWN CENTER WAited for bus again to take me to my final destination....but cos of my double vision and astig, i missed 2 buses...just whiz past me! Damn! Was too slow to react in time.. Sigh W.O.L.S

Anyway, met up Szehui, Dap, Joyce and ah gong. Ate chicken rice!! Kinda enjoyed the food cos everyone was hungry that nobody really spoke in the mids of our dinner!! lol.. Took a couple of lame,bimbo pics... hmmm send me the pics soon ya gal!! You know i'll take eons to send pics...haha

Happy belated bday to u darling JOYCE!! I'll rem 23rd Oct always.... hehe
Will anticipate for our next gathering again. Huggies for all~

Last technique class =(

Rene performed miracle! Woke up mentally at 9am but physically at 1030am! But the miracle part was.......... .......... I slept at 1030pm!!!!!! I've never done that in years! In fact, NEVER!! (minus those days that i'm sick la) I felt floaty and dreamy =p Was damn freaking tired after ytd's NEA event.

P'Oi, my sis Thai friend is here in Spore!! Mummy and I went Pan Pacific hotel to meet her. The hotel rm was so so so NICE!! (executive business unit) No wonder people say Spore's hotels are of a certain standard. I totally agree! Met Mel for last technique class at 4pm in S&G.

Class was most relaxing today, did not really perspire much. Both Mel and I felt weird while dancing today, its like we've not danced for a long time and forgot how to actually dance properly. WEIRD! Nevertheless, we paid full attention to Bellman's every bit of details. He even gave us printed notes that he took down 10 years ago!! Funny shit la he.. When he showed us his original 2 sheets of paper he kept for 10 years, it was like trash been picked up..lol (plus full of spelling error) He even said "Hey, i was only 16! I couldn't even type properly that time!" So funny la he!! CRAPPER!

However, another miracle happened too. Mel actually brought biscuits to eat, but this time PLUS MY SHARE TOO!!! Partner Rene finally got to have a pack of biscuits given by Partner Mel! 1st time ever u'll actually bring something for me to eat!! Lol...hahas Anyway, really sorry abt the incident today lar Mel, didn't meant it yar? =p

Ate Subway Club again with Mel. It was so pathetically filled with little meat and veg! Even missed out my pickles!! Not gonna go Raffles City's outlet anymore. Grrrrr...... The bloody guy is so freaking Stingy can!! Cheat our money! Wanted to upsize our meal with regular drink and cookies but Mel actually said "UPGRADE" lol!! Cookies were so so so SWEET!! Dunno how can Daphne eat that every single day. Mummy came to find us and went back together.

Another call that sets me thinking again. Sigh...i'm so tired of all these.. What should i do?

NEA "My Clean and Green Singapore"