Absolutely crappy day today

Still feeling quite sucky when i woke up, thinking abt stuff and can't stop reprimanding myself..
Didn't had a good night slp..
In fact, I don even expect a GOOD slp... i only hope for a pleasant short rest
Cos i know i can't rest my mind at all

Noon was better....
Had lunch with Benn, Benji, Nick, Zhi Ping and Fly! (weird group huh? heex..)
We packet our food up to Blk E to eat
It was quite a nice feeling to eat there
Quiet and peaceful ... cooling
Shall be my consumption area for the next 1 year.. lol

~ Benji and his macaroni!~
~ NICK LONG AND HIS MACARONI!! MIRACLE FOR PRATAMAN....LOL~
~ And Me and my Macaroni.... sigh! did i really shrink or what? look at the visible bones =( ~

~ Bennerick eating his lunch, he must lean by the pillar cos he can't sit straight! He'll fall back! lol... That's what will happen if u have too tight muscles all over ya body!! lol...

~ Fly and his lappy... stoning~
~ "I'm cam shy! Don't take me" ...... MY FOOT! haha ping will nv be cam shy lor~
~ hahaha funny... Fly on floor and ping holding her slippers. hmm...trying to whack Fly? lol~
~ Nick listening to all the lameness going on~
~ One of my fav choc now! =) Thanks Teng Chung for helping me buy it. Like i said i'm always not fated to buy RitterSport choc! ~

A healthier diet!!
Nick, Benji and I came up with a little eating-control itinerary
Duration: 1 month
With effect from: 28 Jan - 28 Feb 2008
Agreement terms: STRICTLY NO PRATA (in or outta NYP)
Mac- twice a week
No soft drinks

Then we'll slowly cut down on carbo and eat more fruits and veg.... Slowly
1st time ever i see Nick eating MACARONI SOUP! It's a miracle...lol

Well, lunch was so entertained by Fly & Nick when they both crapped and have never ending cold LAME but funny jokes to tell! Laughed our heads off but of cos the ULTIMATE clown was still ......ME! (darn...)

Was so so so slow in catching one of Fly's irritating dirty joke. The famous ant, cave, snake and venom joke! And all my silliest moments and plain blank facial expression was all captured down on video by MR NICK LONG! And i seriously agree that u must really learn how to control ya laughter. haha..

Went back to work and managed to clear some of my work as planned. Finally.... =)
I need to occupy myself.. i seriously need to.. I'll go mad!
Managed to get 3 days OFF IN LIEU to do spring cleaning for sickening CNY. Sigh..

Stayed back after work
For what? I dunno initially..
Then i just got my heels down to dance.. then Anna came and we talked. Anyway, actually i din feel like dancing too.. Weird.

Then something upsetting happened too...
Sigh..
All these are eating me up...
Series of unhappy events happening one after another
Like a never ending chain reaction that goes on and on and on...
Till i can't feel my own emotions anymore..
I can't feel right...

I wanna run away

From everything else

and be alone...........

Alone... right maybe i should

its so irony
As much as i hate and dread being alone, i realise i need to be alone too... *sniffs*