Got my Canon Powershot A550 digi cam from Leong today... Byebye $299! But this is considered a good buy within my budget ler.. oh wells, work hard and save up!!

Losta weird thoughts flow thru my mind lately. Feeling so disoriented .....

"Why?" I asked myself.....
"I don't know" was my answer...

The thought and urge of wanting to pursue my education seems stronger ....
The restrictions made me feel otherwise .....

The desire of being a better dancer, achieve something big and nv stop learning and improve seems stronger ....
My own restrictions made me feel otherwise...

Somehow I feel that I'm not cut out for dance, and why am i still dancing for so long but nv really achieved anything or make a mark for myself? Useless i feel...

I even thought, should i just give up? Will i really continue dancing till my very last breath?
If dance will not be my career in future, why am i putting in so much time and effort in doing it?
What happens in the end?
What is the thing that really keeps this PASSION burn in me?

IS it worth it afterall?

Everything is just so strange and queer ..... I guess this is how u really feel abt something/someone/anything that u like and can't seem to find the reason why u feel this way. It's just unexplainable.

Somehow i feel that i still haven't grown mentally. A childish side of me still remains. My indecisiveness is not helping much too. WHat do u really want in life , Rene? Get a LIFE!

Nothing great or significant have crossed my life for a few years. As though luck is not on my side always, be it anything....

Again, another wake up call... but will i really wake up this time? Time will tell...